She raised me as a child,

she watched me grow up tall

and back when I just couldn't stand

she'd catch me when I'd fall

now things are different,

I've grown into a man

and where I used to need her help,

by my self I can

but looking back I can see

it's all because of her

if she hadn't done all that she did,

if all would not concur

then I couldn't be the man I am,

I just wouldn't be me

for where would it go and how could it grow

if the apple fell far from the tree?

I love you mom.

(this one is about a girl i liked and how i felt she walked out of my life, the girl before "late night logic")

Waves on the Sea

I'm sorry for the way I was

and how I hurt you bad

looking back at what I missed

it kinda makes me mad

thinking how it could have been

and the way I led you on

wanting just to be a friend

but treating you like a pawn

many days have passed since then

and still divided we are

hangin' out like the best of friends

but really not by far

still I want to be your friend

but I know that may never be

for betray your trust, that I have

and I can't move a wave on the sea

the consequences are now unfolding

and I am gone away from thee

and try as I may as long as I may

I can't move a wave on the sea

so grace from God, farewell from me

and may you find a home

a loving man, a happy life

and a place to call your own

though we may not be together

and never more may be

my prayers go with you always

though I can't change a drop of the sea

finally, you are in Gods hands

please trust him with all of thee

for weak as we are he loves us still

and he can part the sea.

 Butterfly Cage

Your big, beautiful eyes, that shine so bright

Caught my glance, in the lower caff.'s light

I knew right then that you had a part

To play in my life, a place in my heart

I didn't know how or when or why

But now it only makes sense to try

My hands are ice because I'm scared

Are we really so well paired?

Will you be mine for years to come?

Or am I over thinking or being dumb?

Infatuation fogs the mind

Thats why they say love is blind

But I hope what I see is really true

Right now I can see me with you

I can only wait to see whats next

But it's true, these words inscribed in text

I'm anxious, I feel like a butterfly cage

You alone have center stage...

Late Night Logic About A Girl (march-may 2009)

Part 1:

the time is slowly creeping by

no more does it seem to fly

apathy's finally starting to hit

girls confuse me and numb my wit

guys get scared and over think

girls say no but then they wink

nothing makes much sense these days

my life is coated in a haze

i stay up late to maul it over

wishing without the four leaf clover

but nothing comes to answer me

locked so I'll never find the key

waitings all there is to do

trying to figure out the clues

Part 2:

I finally asked you out today

examined signs along the way

they all looked like they said yes

but now I know you would never guess

so here I sit, hope and pray

that maybe you will look my way

but now it's yours, you must choose

I now have nothing left to lose

if it's no, I've paid the cost

there's no way i can save what's lost

but if it's yes I'm your, your mine

together forever may our love shine

win or lose, go or stay

I'm still your friend, after this day.

Part 3:

I was frustrated and angry with all remorse

not at you but at this course

I can't make you want me by

I know that, so why would I try

no, I wanted space to clear my head

not our friendship to end up dead

I'm sorry that you thought I was mad

but I had to get over what I wanted so bad

you see, 2 day passed and then we could talk

but away from me you then did walk

where do I go, what should I do?

What happened to the friendship i had with you?

Do you hate me or are you just hurt?

I don't blame you, I feel like dirt

this waiting, and guessing isn't fun

so will you forgive me or is it done?

Part 4:

times were hard, life went on

it took 2 day but then it was gone

the way I felt had simmered down

mostly gone, I'd no more frown

when I saw your lovely face

it didn't hurt to feel your embrace

no more a one sided romance

back to a friend, at least at a glance

still “what if?” is in my head

the spark was only nearly dead

slowly but sure it crept away

now it's gone and I'm truly okay

the feelings I felt have faded out

a renewed friendship now can sprout

I'm glad it's over and we're getting along

we're hanging out and nothings wrong

now come what may, this promise I boast

you are my friend, first and foremost

 

 

The main message I wanted to portray in each part

Part 1: you confuse me so much with your mixed signals, my emotions are getting so well blended that I'm starting to feel apathetic because I can't pick out anything else

Part 2: It's in your hands, anything that could have been lost was lost when you made your choice... I no longer have anything to lose.

Part 3: the answer is no, and as much as I don't care theres still part of me that does

Part 4: finally, we're friends and nothing more and now that alright with me

ok to any one that likes my work and want more i'm sorry that i don't get on this site often but i can say that i will at least have one more long peice coming hopefully really soon, but i still need to finish the last part and probably reword a little bit here and there.  so thank you for your fanship (if thats even a word) and your patience, you must have a lot to still actually check back after about 2 months of no activity.