Late Night Logic About A Girl (march-may 2009)
Part 1:
the time is slowly creeping by
no more does it seem to fly
apathy's finally starting to hit
girls confuse me and numb my wit
guys get scared and over think
girls say no but then they wink
nothing makes much sense these days
my life is coated in a haze
i stay up late to maul it over
wishing without the four leaf clover
but nothing comes to answer me
locked so I'll never find the key
waitings all there is to do
trying to figure out the clues
Part 2:
I finally asked you out today
examined signs along the way
they all looked like they said yes
but now I know you would never guess
so here I sit, hope and pray
that maybe you will look my way
but now it's yours, you must choose
I now have nothing left to lose
if it's no, I've paid the cost
there's no way i can save what's lost
but if it's yes I'm your, your mine
together forever may our love shine
win or lose, go or stay
I'm still your friend, after this day.
Part 3:
I was frustrated and angry with all remorse
not at you but at this course
I can't make you want me by
I know that, so why would I try
no, I wanted space to clear my head
not our friendship to end up dead
I'm sorry that you thought I was mad
but I had to get over what I wanted so bad
you see, 2 day passed and then we could talk
but away from me you then did walk
where do I go, what should I do?
What happened to the friendship i had with you?
Do you hate me or are you just hurt?
I don't blame you, I feel like dirt
this waiting, and guessing isn't fun
so will you forgive me or is it done?
Part 4:
times were hard, life went on
it took 2 day but then it was gone
the way I felt had simmered down
mostly gone, I'd no more frown
when I saw your lovely face
it didn't hurt to feel your embrace
no more a one sided romance
back to a friend, at least at a glance
still “what if?” is in my head
the spark was only nearly dead
slowly but sure it crept away
now it's gone and I'm truly okay
the feelings I felt have faded out
a renewed friendship now can sprout
I'm glad it's over and we're getting along
we're hanging out and nothings wrong
now come what may, this promise I boast
you are my friend, first and foremost
The main message I wanted to portray in each part
Part 1: you confuse me so much with your mixed signals, my emotions are getting so well blended that I'm starting to feel apathetic because I can't pick out anything else
Part 2: It's in your hands, anything that could have been lost was lost when you made your choice... I no longer have anything to lose.
Part 3: the answer is no, and as much as I don't care theres still part of me that does
Part 4: finally, we're friends and nothing more and now that alright with me