King of the moment but the moment's gone,

now you're right back as a Pawn. 

But even a Pawn can become a Queen, 

make a change and whip it clean. 

Few Pawns can ever earn a check,

fewer still make the eight square trek.

But the Master moves each peice in turn,

in the end the win to earn.

And a lucky Pawn protects the Knight,

while another will block a path of flight.

The King will die by the Rook,

but thats because a Pawn partook.

Thats why the Master cares for all,

from the mighty Queen to the Pawn so small.

Psalm 121

why is the world so stressful?  we have jobs to keep and bills to pay and relationships to maintain and what does the media do about this?  society seriously needs to stop forcing people into it's comfort zone, for example i stood up for my scottish heritage and wore a kilt and the whole day all i felt was preasure to conform, there were only a few people to out right say that they thought i was gay but there was still the constant, subtle 'hints' that people thought the same.  ok i'll admit that it is a little weird to see a guy in a kilt just because he can but still this kind of thing is every where just we don't notice it as much.  girls, do you feel your not enough?  guys, do you feel inadequate?  well girls you are beautiful and guys you are strong because God says so!

"So God created man in his Own Image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them." (Genesis 1:27)

“One thing I ask of the Lord; that I may dwell in his house and to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord.” (Psalm 27:4) (paraphrased)

to feel nothing has to be one of the worst fates any man can endure.  if you feel no love or joy then there is no hope and if you don't feel guilt or pain then there is no way of knowing what is wrong and there fore no way of mending what ever problem is there.  the only thing you can know when you feel nothing is that something is wrong because we are made to feel emotions and if everything were alright then we would feel them.  the next worst thing in this area is bordom.  bordom is the effect of a single repeting pattern and the only reason that it is a level up from feeling nothing is because when your bored you can still feel it when you do something wrong.  so how do most people deal with bordom? they do something bad like drugs because it is a change and they are desperate for change.  after doing this a while you start to not feel the guilt and pain and when this life style continues it leads to further till you feel nothing... but it stoped the bordom for a time... was it worth it?  when i do something bad i know it and try to stop, some times i make it and some times i don't but i think that fear of becoming that emotionless being is one thing that keeps me from doing drugs and the likes, i want to feel love, i want to enjoy life and most of all i want to feel God's presence when i know that i have honoured him and if i sin then i can't... and it kills me to feel sperated from him...

(james 2:14-20)

i read a forward today that kinda bugged me. it was your typical 'if you really love God you'll pass this on' kind of e-mail.  as i read it i found that what it was trying to say and it's purpose were good but i don't see why we can't make up a forward that people will laugh at and enjoy instead of getting them offeneded, anioed or mad in my case.  i hate these kinds of e-mails for these reasons

1  just sending them is a cop out to trick christians in to 'sharing' their faith in a gutless way instead of actually getting their hands dirty and helping people for a change

2  they are in-affective, even christian begin to resent them

3  they rely on guilt tripping, defeating the purpose of them in the first place

4  and finaly, my faith does not relly on e-mails!

these are the reasons why i will delete or drastically change a forward that regards faith.  i think it is good to have some christian forwards going around but please at least make them interesting to the majority of people, christian or not, and stop with the guilt tripping, it pisses me off.

if time and space are falling apart, and fog and webs mask the heart

and we wander along to no avail, only to find that we lose our trail

then why are we here and whats the use, living just to find an excuse

and yet i sit and write about action, doing nothing yet wanting passion

passion that keeps all life in motion, while being trapped in this great ocean

but how to fight when all is lost, to press on despite the cost.

the answer is to find the heart, clear the webs, push through the dark

but how to find a wounded heart, that runs and hides in lands apart

the warrior with in that disappears, and is replaced with all your fears

it takes a guide that knows the path, who'll track it down and sooth it's wrath

he is God and Jesus Christ, who'll heal the wounds and pay the price.